Friday, 17 February 2012 04:24
Hey. I know you have been stalking my blog, girl. I'm sorry, I said I will update constantly but lately, I don't really have time to do so. You know, exams and all. I know you are unhappy about this, maybe that's why you stopped updating your blog(?) So now, in the midst of studying, I update my blog for you. I am not very used to Twitter and my FB is most of the time, inactive. But I am 24/7 on phone, you can ring me up at 4am, I don't mind. -laughs-
All along, I have been trying to make you smile. I know you can never forget that guy, but at least when you are with me or with your friends, he is off your mind for a short moment. I know you have been faking smiles, forcing laughter. But you know, it really makes my day worthwhile to see you happy, even though it's temporary. Keep smiling girl, it will become genuine again one day, that smile of yours. You never know when someone will fall in love with it. Don't always think about death, about you being useless, not good enough and stuff like that. You know you want to learn the guitar, the piano, shamisen, fue, drums, bass, etc. So many things you want to learn, but when you want to die, how do you achieve them? Don't look for death, girl. Let death find you when it's supposed to.
To make people happy is how I keep myself happy. It's kind of, like my life mission. I don't mind when no one's there to make me feel happy. As long as I make somebody happy, I am happy. I seldom feel sad. So, let me make you happy too. I like the way you laugh, it's cute and it somehow warms people up. Hearing you laugh relaxes me actually, Idk why though.
Your Valentine's Day gift is still with me. It's belated, I am sorry. But I really had something on on that day, last min. m(_ _)m ー土下座！！ー Nothing very special, but I hope you like it. Been a while since I last bought a gift for a girl, and I am not very skilled in choosing gifts for girls. Let's meet up after my exams, go on an outing to somewhere near the sea and I'll pass it to you then. You told me before, you want to learn the guitar for "Aishiteru Kara Hajimeyou" right? I'll teach you on that day too. I will do my best to make you happy. It may not be real, but at least, I see your smile, and that's all I want. :)
Don't worry about whatever you told me just now. I know how you feel, and that you don't want me to become a replacement of him. It never really bothered me. As long as you are comfortable with me that way, I don't mind. Don't think about it too much.
